All things said and done

Well...It's been some time not to actually put my thoughts on this blog, I have been quite busy with some field service. My skin has grown darker, and the weather is pretty extreme.

I am glad that I am finally alive. Alive - get back to my work, stepping into reality and dealing with real problems surely make me stronger than before, humans always learn, don't we? But in the end, we all take consequences of our actions. I regret some actions I did in the past, but I think moving forward is the best answer for me now.

I am back with my spiritual enlightenment, brother and sister are very kind to me, welcoming, that I think I have always found my home or more, a PARADISE.

Rest, teaching is something that I enjoy much. I hope I can become a better teacher and a better learner day by day. Thank God for all His kindness to me.

The unreachable

So, yesterday he blocked me out of his life, he said he doesn't have any interest in anything I do. He simply doesn't care. Two weeks ago, he said he'll love me forever. However, that being said, I can see the hatred in the tone, that he said I damage his life, I am sad and reaching the conclusion,I know I shouldn't bother him in his life, because he told me the person I know is dead. For me, He is alive, and if he now chooses to be a new, cold him, then I'll keep the old him in my heart forever.

Love, it's something weird. I was in pain, and also in joy when being with him. But now, after all these, especially causing him such hatred, I know this time, I can let go.

Goodbye, my dear bf, u r always in my heart. :)I have promised the old him I will pray for him, I'll do. Wishing him happiness always.